Big Pregnancy Update

So Friday was a busy day. I got off work a little early and we went to have a gender ultrasound done. At first, we couldn't see anything. The baby wasn't in a good position. The ultrasound tech had only one more appointment before he had to leave, but he told us we could try again in a few minutes to see if the baby moved at all. If not, we were out of luck and had to reschedule. So I drank some juice and we walked around. Luckily, that worked and the baby moved into the perfect position.

As horrible as it is to say, we were shocked by the news. We were both so positive (as well as everybody else) that we were having a boy. My motherly instincts were wrong. Everything was wrong. Both of us couldn't help but be sad. We had wanted a little boy so badly. We didn't plan on having any girls, at all. (Not that we could control it). The thought didn't really cross our minds. We both always just saw ourselves having boys. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with a little girl. Things are going to be completely different. It was hard hearing everyone tell us, just be happy that your having a healthy daughter. Your going to love her anyways. We obviously get that, but in a way, we were mourning the loss of our son. When we lost our first baby, we didn't really grieve, but we just tried to move on. Thinking this baby was a boy, made it harder on us. All of the what ifs about the first baby didn't make it any easier either. I'm sure I'm going to be judged as a horrible mother. I feel horrible about having these thoughts and feelings, but for some reason,  I cant really help it. I know I'm not the only one who felt this way, because I have seen it on my birth boards too, but does it get any better?

We don't have a name for her picked out yet. A boy name was easy, because he was going to be named after his dad, but now, we have a lot more to think about. My Fiance is Russian, so we decided we want to pick out a Russian name if possible. But we want a name that means something. Anybody who has ever named a baby before knows how hard naming a baby is!

One good thing is that I can finally start picking out Nursery stuff. This baby girl will have two Nursery's. One of them my Fiance's mom will be decorating, and the other I will be decorating. It will be fun to see what each of us come up with. I'm starting to run out of time though! There is so much to do. Look for plenty of before and after nursery pictures with plenty of DIY posts!

Also, we agreed to let S's mom do a baby shower for us. It will be in the middle of October. My mom is also throwing a shower, but we haven't planned too much for that one yet. Now S and I have to go make our registries. Any suggestions on the best places to register?